When everything falls apart....

these are some pics taken from the skybridge of the petronas twin towers.... the bridge was shaky alright...... oh and the elevator is superfast... call me a jakun... but seriously.... damn fast man... only took 41 seconds to reach the 41st floor.

im leaving for germany in september. so basically, i'm spending most of my free times learning deutsch... it's tough i tell ya... but alex is trying his level best to help me. so the first few lines i learnt is 'ich liebe dich' (i love u) ... of course... then second comes the 'BED' languages.. not bed but BED.. teehee.... na kidding on that one... we just got back from the museum and we didnt like it that much.... history sucks. ok, we're heading out to the merdeka square and dinner in a bit.... ciaooooo!

looking for missing azura? she's back. been a while yeah... like they say... no news means good news. yes... im not leading a miserable life anymore... here's a man i look forward to seeing everyday.... the one who makes me smile and laugh a lot.... life's been good so far.. so cant complain.... cant complain.. teeheee.... gonna try to find sumtime to update this more... i miss writing a lot sometimes.... adios for now.... ;)

i am in the process of selling all my material possesions. freeing my self up to live. i'm at the same fork in the road what next? soon enough i will walk out of my misery and start my life what ever it may be. i'm just gonna open the door and start fresh! no turning back! it's like a hole that will suck me in.... mmmm.... maybe i should try to put golf... it can be very relaxing... can you help me vee?

i spent this morning hanging out with my friend and one of her friends. her husband just passed away and we were hanging out at her house. she spoke of their relationship, showed the pictures, told us of how he was and that she was sad and missed him, but is celebrating his life and their love... she was so at peace and greiving in positivity. after being at the house for a few hours, playing with their dogs and walking around looking at the pictures on the wall...i could feel that real, true, honest to goodness love. it was very cool and very inspiring.

i feel like giving up hope on my search for the real thing sometimes too. i dont want that fake, boring, non communicative and disrespectul love. i want the real thing...its out there...i guess we all have to just be patient and wait.

all of our past experience help shape and show how we are today, teach us what works and doesnt work for each of us. it also gives us the idea of what true love means to each of us.....